Ken Holland was
resilient and bounced back from his ticking off the day before. Nothing dented
his natural enthusiasm for long. There was no flying for him (although
‘Deanesley and Bayles [were] shot up by a Ju 88 which got away’) so he had a
‘sleepy day’. As he lolled around, there was ‘bags of panic in the afternoon
about invasion’ but he did not take it seriously. He had plans to go into Weymouth
for a few quiet drinks with friends. As had happened so often before, Ken’s
outing turned into a late night (sorry, early morning) drinking session and he turned
in at 2.00 a.m.
He told them that he had been in action a number of times now, and had
regularly carried out operational sorties with 46 Squadron. He had successfully
put aside his initial fear and air fighting now, ‘is not very
worrying...one gets used to it and regards it as more or less just doing a job
of work’.
Of great
importance to John in keeping the fear at bay and ensuring he could carry out
that job of work, was his new kite. V6748 was not just his pride and joy, it
was his strength. He hold his family that:
‘I absolutely
mother and keep it in tip top condition. My mechanics are just beginning to get
used to my ways and are keeping things clean now without being told. It is well
worth it because now I know that everything is at its best and I can’t have
things better. I spend most of my spare time on my aeroplane with the result
that when I go into combat I have ever so much more confidence.’
John loved his RAF life. It was something he had dreamed of since
childhood and now, despite the war, despite being far from his home and missing
his family and their letters which were chasing him all around the country as
he moved from squadron to training school, from squadron to squadron and from
one end of the country to the other, despite an indefinite separation from his
fiancée, he was fulfilled. He tried to impart a sense of this to the folks back
home:
‘I hope I will
never have to leave the RAF. There’s something about the service that gets into
one’s blood and these days I get a very satisfied feeling.’
It seems this
letter to his family was his last and, although he did not pen it as a final
farewell, the passages quoted above are extremely poignant in light of what will
happen before the month is out.
John Crossman from a more carefree time, on a bush picnic, before he sailed to the UK.
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